February 2010
January 2010
my mom just offered me salad my dad made
said she couldnt eat it all. it was all really good stuff but i know how many calories i need to eat and i have to plan all my stuff out as i go or its just not right. and its like.. if food is offered at all thats the end. im miserable. im miserable eating it, im miserable not eating it, FOOD MAKES ME MISERABLE.
i hate it. im just so frustrated with it. im upset that food is necessary, that we...
“If you know the enemy and know yourself you need not fear the results of a...”
– Sun Tzu (via reluctantbuddha) (via quote-book)
i can't stay here, i know i can see the finish...
i woke up about an hour ago (for all you east-coasters, yes, that would be 1pm). i feel like a major bum. right now im just trying to wake up my body and charge my mp3 player, get to the gym. that’ll wake me up haha. i hate sleeping late! but i think all the 5 hour nights during the week just have that affect on me. when i can finally sleep til whenever i want , my body goes overboard trying...
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“And once the storm is over you won’t remember how you made it through, how you...”
– Haruki Murakami (via claudiacrayon) (via libraryland) (via jeralyndwile) (via myperfectlyflawedlife)
let's just say
that rest days don’t agree with me. i guess i need to go to the gym to remind me what im working towards. i definitely f*cked up on the eating front last night.
but its a new day. its a new day. im not going to repeat the same mistakes over nad over. it was one night. todays brand new.
today’s brand new and im going to the gym.
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“im in the war of my life, at the core of my life. got no choice but to fight til...”
– “war of my life” john mayer
Binge Eating Disorder (BED)
startinganewlife:
underneaththeresgold:
Binge eating disorder (BED) is the newest clinically recognized eating disorder. BED is primarily identified by repeated episodes of uncontrolled eating. The overeating or binging does not typically stop until the person is uncomfortably full. Unlike anorexia nervosa and bulimia however, BED is not associated with inappropriate behaviors such as vomiting...
yesterday's menu
since i dont plan out what i eat beforehand, at least not all of it, i figure itd be easiest to post what i ate either the day after or at the end of the day. so here’s what i ate yesterday :)
12:00 am- hershey’s kisses and m&ms (shutup haha): 250 cal 6:00 am- 2 egg whites: 30 cal 7:45 am- omelette with bacon pieces: 125 cal 10:30 am- banana: 75 cal 1:00 pm- grilled...
“If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is...”
– Matthew 5:29-30 (NIV) (via pineappleupsidedown)
“so i must learn to abort these feelings”
– “casualty” cursive
wwuuuuuut
how am i at 1015 calories already ? oh evil life!
that’s okay, today’s limit is 1500. it’s a “rest day” aka only gym once. my bones felt sooo drained this morning. did i say all this already? probably.
point is, i only have 500 left! eeep!
“someone once told me that you have to choose what you win or lose: ‘you...”
– “happy” leona lewis
I walk into class today....
infinitebutterflies:
rugbypopcorn:
And I said, “Good afternoon.”
He replies to me with, “And they wash their beef with amonia.”
I had to ask, “I’m sorry, what?”
He answers with, “At McDonalds, it’s how they clean their beef.”
1. I refuse to eat at MickyD’s for a while now
2. Wtf.
DONT EAT BEEF!!!!!!
unfortunately burger king was my favorite. but still! same policies im sure. GROSSSSSS
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Binge Eating Disorder (BED)
Binge eating disorder (BED) is the newest clinically recognized eating disorder. BED is primarily identified by repeated episodes of uncontrolled eating. The overeating or binging does not typically stop until the person is uncomfortably full. Unlike anorexia nervosa and bulimia however, BED is not associated with inappropriate behaviors such as vomiting or excessive exercise to rid the body of...
daily calorie needs
so i was reading Fitness before i went to bed, and in one of their articles they’re talking about your specific calorie needs and how it pertains to your body type, etc, and put a link for their website so you can go and see for yourself. and of course i had to reopen my computer and go find out… this could not wait til morning people! lol here were my results:
crazy right?!...
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“Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps...”
– -Ayn Rand (via artpixie)
this quote actually persuaded me to not go downstairs and eat chocolate, which i was almost going to do. wow. :) i feel good about this.
can they stop playing those reese's commercials?
seriously. people are trying to be healthy over here.
“Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not...”
– (via allurlsaretaken) (via luckseems-silly)
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i cant wait to be off this "lb a day" challenge
cause im seriously HUNGRY. 1250 is my usual limit but GOD all the extra work outs are making me ravenous. seriously struggling to not run downstairs and smuggle up some rice cakes.
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DAILY CALORIE LOG
BURNED AT THE GYM: 2050 cal
BURNED OUTSIDE OF GYM: 200 (walks) 2500 (being alive)
EATEN: 1260 cal
TOTAL BURNED: 3490 calories
tonights gym run
was pretty brutal. yes, i had way less calories to burn but for some reason i had like … zero energy. or it was frantic energy. i just couldnt really focus my core and just dig in. i was bouncing the hell around on the arc-trainer like i was tied on and thats the only way i wasnt falling off. so i stayed mostly on the bike, elliptical and stairs. so glad im home in bed now though!
another...
4:50pm
and you know what that means. time to make some coffee and get myself pumped for the gym!
the good news is i only have 800 calories left to burn… so thats pretty sweet! yay for waking up on time in the mornings!
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“I agree. Victoria’s Secret is porn for the fat.”
– amanda
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oh, so this is totes worth mentioning
after i went to the gym last night, i put on the real world (yes, guilty) and smoked. i was a little scared that i would go off the handle and eat everything in the kitchen, but the funny thing is i didn’t even want to. i think working out right before makes the struggle more present and reminds me of the goals i want to accomplish.
although i did eat a handful of m&ms right before i...
2.1!!!!!!!!!!!!
startinganewlife:
I am officially 2.1 lbs away from hitting my 20 lbs weight loss mark.
Things to check off and be proud of:
17.9 lbs down
I have lost 10% of my total body weight.
I am 17.6 lbs away from being a “normal” weight for me!
way to go, you’re halfway there! who’s a superstar?! :)
“in the end you’re gonna learn: you get what you deserve.”
– “dead meat” sean lennon
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40 lbs in 4 months
before i fell asleep last night i realized something. there are almost exactly 4 months between here and june. if i get my butt into gear, i can definitely lose 10 lbs each month! ive done it before, so its not so much a question of “is it possible” as it is “can i get on track and stay in control for five straight months?” and i think i can. i want to believe i can.
first...
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kickassandtakenames:
I’ve been sitting at this computer for awhile debating whether to do this post or not. I’ve dropped 3 lbs in a little over a week. Um, I dunno, I think that’s a little much at this point in the game. Now I’m weirded out and self conscious because I lost this much weight. I’m guessing it’s because I’ve written all my food down for 7 days in a row and stayed at around 1200...
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